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May. 22nd, 2005 @ 03:52 pm (Damn the Subject)
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I died from natural causes:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I committed suicide:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Hair:
» Family:
WOULD YOU:
» Be my friend?:
» Keep a secret if I told you one?:
» Hold my hand?:
» Take a bullet for me?:
» Keep in touch?:
» Try and solve my problems?:
» Love me?:
» Date me?:
HAVE YOU EVER:
» Lied to make me feel better?:
» Wanted to kiss me?:
» Wanted to kill me?:
» Broke my heart?:
» Kept something important from me?:

And More
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?
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Apr. 21st, 2005 @ 02:45 pm Long time no random LiveJournaling:
What's my Mood again:: apathetic
Here is what is up:

Okay so I have 12 days to finish my comp...I still need to write the story and the paper and finish putting everything together. For some damn reason I have said I will help with lights for the play next weekend...ah!!!!!!!!! Then the friday after the 2nd I have a paper due for gospels! which I have not begun. I honestly do not think it will be very difficult. If I like me topic any way...

Last night was fun...up until 3:30 doing online quizzes and hearing Jennifer tell something is a good tickle and watching Amy get depressed because her online quiz sex life sucks...wearing bunny ears...good times...

I got up at 8:21 this morning...I then watch south park and revelations then played jade empire until 11...good times...

I am trying to write my story now but its not working. the English office is not conducive to creative writing...oddly enough. All these damn chairs cut off my circulation. I just want to fall into a hole and never come out which is what will happen if I stay in Springfield this summer. I doubt it will happen since I have yet to call anyone.

*Yawn*

Today is somehow Thursday...somehow. New The OC tonight which is always good...my room is not very conducive for creative writing either...I am too lazy...well later.
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Apr. 2nd, 2005 @ 02:10 pm (Damn the Subject)
LiveJournal is boring...no one says anything...Goodbye
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Mar. 24th, 2005 @ 02:00 pm (Damn the Subject)
I finally got Dragon Ball Z: Sagas. I have been waiting for this game for months and since I have been home I have been driving the people at Blockbuster crazy...YEA!
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Mar. 16th, 2005 @ 01:39 pm My eyes are blurry - I am varied.
I should have been an artist...
I could have created light.
I reget being too afraid...
I should have stood in protest...
I could have screamed, STOP!
I reget being too afraid...
I should have been stronger...
I could have changed lives!
I reget being too afraid...
I should have brought peace...
I could have hualted wars!
I regret being too afraid...
I should have been...
I could have been...
I was too afraid.
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Mar. 16th, 2005 @ 01:17 pm It's where she lives broken inside...
So auditions for the next play were announced today...I want to audition - I really do but the Dad says I need to focus on school more. I would have to have my lines memorized by the time spring break was over and over spring break I have to spend 24/7 working on my damn Comprehensive Project that I was supposed to be doing all semester. If you have not guessed already I have not worked on my comp at all...okay that is a lie. I began writing the story I was going to use but I have decided it is too involved and would never work for this project, so now I am starting all over. Oh and guess what! I am supposed to turn in what I have done today at 4 - yeah that's not happening. I wonder if she is going to be pissed. I don't really care if she is. It has been confirmed that she is leaving at the end of the semester. Apparently, everyone is leaving at semesters end: most business teachers, all IT teachers, the freaking president of OU resigned yesterday...this place is slowly dying. Oh and Danielle is transferring to OSU for her senior year and is apparently thinking about marrying her boyfriend!

I went and talked with the career services lady yesterday and asked if she could help me find an IT related summer job. Her response was basically, "Well...you can look around."!!!! I want to shoot myself right now...school is pissing me off. I can get a job on campus that may or may not count towards my work study money for the fall - no one seems to know! I would have to drive an hour to and from work to work on campus for $6 an hour. I am going to go see if IT needs help over the summer because I hear they have a project or two planned. I really want to taken Senior Core over the summer. Senior Core is like a group problem statement and resolution paper writing class that everyone has to take. Basically it is like writing two mini-dissertations with a group...fun, huh? I cannot write using other people's words...I don't need their ideas and options to make my points...

I found out the other day that if a fetus' growth remained constant during maturation, as in the 24 hour cell doubling which occurs after fertilization and implantation, it would be larger than the sun when it was born...crazy.

Class to going am i.
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Mar. 15th, 2005 @ 12:49 pm (Damn the Subject)
Armed and Dangerous
Congratulations! You scored 88%!

You made it out, alive and well supplied. You probably even kept most
of your party alive too. You know what to look for, what to take, and
when to just run. You even feel a strange inkling to go back. If you
did, you'd probably do just fine.



My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
You scored higher than 98% on survivalpoints
Link: The Zombie Scenario Survivor Test written by ci8db4uok on Ok Cupid
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Mar. 12th, 2005 @ 02:44 pm (Damn the Subject)
So, what's new pussycat?

Halo 2 tourament tonight at 5. I really do not want to sit there for 5 hours like last time. No wait last time it was technically 7 hours because everyone showed up at 5 to set things up.

I realized this morning that the story for my comp is too involved for me to use. I need to start over basically. Julie, head of IT, is not going to be happy with that I can tell you. Fortunately, or unfortunately depending on who you are in this situation or if it is true, Julie is being fired or is leaving or something. I hope I can get it done over spring break. I have been working the pixel art which is done pixel by pixel so it is taking a little while to fine tune. I hope to start on the interface next week...like tuesday because I have two tests on monday.

I am such a slacker lately. I have a B in a lit class now that is bad...never have i gotten a anything lower an A- in english/literature and I have horrible spelling.

Well I think i am going back to my reaction essay that is due in a month.
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Mar. 11th, 2005 @ 03:58 pm (Damn the Subject)
*sigh* i'm tired for absolutely no reason.

I went to this chick Kate Wilcox's dirtoring comp last night. It lasted 25 mins and was fairly funny. I went to casino night last night. Kate's play was at 8 and casino night began then so I was 30 mins late. It was packed when I got there. I wandered around then asked a lady in charge to set up a new table. Some people and I played Texas Holdem for like 1 1/2 hours. I couldnt win at all until i stopped looking at my cards. I won everytime after that. This guy sat down like the second hand and just kept raising and raising for no reason what so ever...I do not believe he understood the fun part of the night. In the end he walked away with a gift card to a resturant in town, soap and a tee shirt that said Ottawa University on it. I won printer paper...woo. I also ended up with 2 free whoppers. Every 1000 was a ticket entered into the drawing if anyone was wondering.

Nothing new...I continue to not work on my comp and I have two maybe three tests on monday then spring break.

Later
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Mar. 10th, 2005 @ 10:41 pm (Damn the Subject)
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username
reason for being famous
plastic surgery you've had done
your tabloid scandalsex tape
your stalkerdesastre_bonita
your best friend
your nemesis
the tabloids think you're dating
you're really dating
your secret lover
your bitter ex
how long you stay in the spotlighta year
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Mar. 10th, 2005 @ 04:08 pm Sitting, waiting, wishing
What's my Mood again:: Twitchy should be a mood.
Has anyone seen that video? It's a little strange...

Not much going on. Yesterday was advising day so I did nothing all day. I have no classes today so I have nothing all day. I was trying to read for class tomorrow but I noticed I still have 20 pages so I have stopped. I have to pee so I am going to go.
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Mar. 8th, 2005 @ 07:59 am (Damn the Subject)
Okay I should really stop reading Yahoo! News check out this article about the minimum wage increase.
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Mar. 6th, 2005 @ 02:27 pm (Damn the Subject)
I am incompatible today...
I am incommunicable, I could say...
I am incomplete...together, in a way

I am depleted and defeated –
I am defective and directive –
I am distracted and detractive –

I am unable to convey...
I am unraveled, I could fray...
I am unavailable, in someway

I am behind and between –
I am benign and blind –
I am believed and befallen -

I am perplexed today...
I am permeable, I could sway...
I am perceived, in everyway

I am nothing
I am everything

I am everywhere
I am nowhere

I am
I am not

I am...
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Mar. 5th, 2005 @ 04:02 pm (Damn the Subject)
Hmm...do I have anything to bitch about? Nope.

I saw the play again last night. It's called Two for the Seesaw. I am technically in the play but i once again have a recorded voice track. It's cool though I got to write the lines and record it myself and it is funny. I would like to be in a play again but I do not see that happening unless i can get my comp project done over spring break. It is not all that difficult to do i just need to sit down and do it. Technology and literature an interactive adventure...that is my title. What the hell was i thinking? stupid ambishion for grad school...anyway...i like being in the play it just takes up so much time. if i do get my comp done then i will have a lot of free time to work on or in the play.

someone give me a job...i'll be happier then. I am worried about this summer however. if i can't find somewhere to work i will be very screwed...sigh.


well i am off.
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Mar. 3rd, 2005 @ 08:35 am (Damn the Subject)

Okay so everyone needs to read this article from Yahoo! News that was posted an hour and a half ago. If anyone agrees with this article it is best that you keep it to yourself because our friendship will be at an end because of you ignorance...Read it and I hope it pisses you off...It should piss you off no matter who you are.

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Mar. 1st, 2005 @ 12:31 pm (Damn the Subject)
Get aload of you - get aload of me...
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Feb. 24th, 2005 @ 03:10 pm Part of me wishes I had *not* just gotten really drunk and slept with five panda bears...
What's my Mood again:: bored
Voices singing in my head:: nothing
...the other part doesn't even remember.

Stuff to write about: I was watching a show called In Search of... and there was a guy who says he has been to hell and come back. Apparently he was an atheist, with a pedophile mustache, who had cancer, or something, and died in a hospital. If you thought this was uninteresting it gets worse. After he dies he proceeds to have a fairly typical after death experience. He sees himself lying dead and his wife crying but when he tries to call out she doesn't hear him. Then two people dressed like hospital works call to him and at first he doesn't know what to do but then he follows them thinking they are taking him to surgery - like a moron. As they group moves down the hall the hospital works begin to change into run of the mill demons. More demons come and they begin to eat him, which is just pointless. For some reason he starts calling out to God using, in his words, "any phase with the word God in it". The demons start smoking and boiling when he says God - for some reason - then they run away and God or someone pulls him even further from the demons and, I guess, hell. He then wakes up after having come out of surgery. I don't remember anyone having told him that he died.

Yeah I don't know why that was on TV. Everything else, with the exception of the modern day, fat, nerdy vampires who use seduction to lure in their prey, was really interesting. The show talked about other typical mythical creatures like bigfoot and lockness.

I started making interesting figures using only circles last night. They have turned out pretty cool. I wish I had paint shop on this computer. This thing only has Win 98 on it.

Well, back to some sort of grindstone.

*Piece*
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Feb. 22nd, 2005 @ 09:01 am (Damn the Subject)
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Feb. 22nd, 2005 @ 08:57 am (Damn the Subject)
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Feb. 22nd, 2005 @ 08:14 am (Damn the Subject)
Check this out - it's a binary enocder and decoder
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Feb. 18th, 2005 @ 08:04 am (Damn the Subject)
f you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?
(Now post this in your LJ and find out what mine would be)
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Feb. 17th, 2005 @ 12:22 pm (Damn the Subject)
So, gues what? I sort of have a freelance graphic design job...this guy, Justin, from this site, www.wildpins.com, makes pins for high school sports teams. He put up some flyers, I called, he asked, I sent examples, he gave me a trial piece to work on...we'll see.
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Feb. 15th, 2005 @ 11:36 am (Damn the Subject)
My xbox just broke...or something.

Either way I need to work on my comp. I had an idea to make the first part completely interactive by using real photos...it'll be cool but I need a digital camera...if only I had one of those.
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Feb. 14th, 2005 @ 05:31 pm (Damn the Subject)
I apoligize that once again I am not enough...
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Feb. 14th, 2005 @ 01:39 pm So I just began...
...writing the main story for my comp. Here's what I have so far (a whole 4 lines or so):

“Wake up.”
“I’m skipping class today,” you mumble rolling over.
“Open your eyes and see me.”
“Go aw…”
“See me!”
Aggravated you force open your blurry, tender eyes cursing everything that comes to mind. The morning sun strikes at you with no regard insuring the demanding voice will get what it wants and solidifying your hatred of daylight.


Obviously I am nowhere near finished, but I hope I piss quite a few people off by the time I am done. I am not going to say where this story is going but everyone should anticipate being offended...especially if you are a fan of religion and not a fan of things at going against the set traditions.

Either way, piss off.
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Feb. 14th, 2005 @ 12:00 pm Looking at you I wonder if that is true...
Some days I feel as though I will disappear completely...currently I am sitting at 50% opacity that way people can still see me when they want something from me - and they usually do. Until then I am and will always be The See-Thru Man.
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Feb. 14th, 2005 @ 08:43 am *Whip Noises*
I could tell from the minute I woke up
It was going to be a lonely lonely
lonely lonely day.
Rise and shine rub the sleep out of my eyes
And try to tell myself I can't
go back to bed
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Even though the sun is shining down on me and I should feel about as happy as can be
I just got here and I already want to leave
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day

Everybody knows that something's wrong
But nobody knows what's going on
We all sing the same old song
When you want it all to go away
It's shaping up to be a lonely day

I could tell from the minute I woke up it was going to be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.

*Phantom Planet*
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Feb. 11th, 2005 @ 01:33 pm (Damn the Subject)
I won $50 today! Jan, the librarian, where the money voucher was hidden, asked if I found it because I am so mucher smarter than everyone else...yeah, baby!
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Feb. 10th, 2005 @ 09:11 am (Damn the Subject)
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Feb. 8th, 2005 @ 07:44 pm (Damn the Subject)

LJ Friends Meme by [info]coolerq

• You must tell 6 people about this game.
Sarah is the one that you love.
Jennifer is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Kevin.
Liz is the one who knows you very well.
Sabrina is your lucky star.
I want you to want me is the song that matches with Sarah.
She is the song for Jennifer.
Don't Tell Me is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and One Thing is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz
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Feb. 8th, 2005 @ 03:24 pm (Damn the Subject)
Did you ever want something so much but all you could do is hint at it because you know, or rather feel as though it could never work? Have you thought about this something to the point of exhaustion and as you lay attempting sleep it is there next to you as though it were part of your being? Can you look it in the eye everyday and pretend to be devoid of emotion? Do you question yourself even though there is nothing to question?

You are indeed stronger than I...
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Feb. 7th, 2005 @ 09:33 pm (Damn the Subject)
You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.

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Unipolar Depression

75%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

42%

Eating Disorders

25%

Schizophrenia

25%

Borderline Personality Disorder

17%

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

8%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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Feb. 5th, 2005 @ 04:42 pm (Damn the Subject)
*Burp*
*Yawn*

Okay so the guy who was supposed to work with me today did not show up until 3:04 and I think he just left - it is now 4:43. He keep asking about my cell phone and my payment plan. It was strange.

15mins of work left. I did no reading today because of the same day loud lady and her damn loud kids as last week. Grrr.
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Feb. 5th, 2005 @ 02:16 pm (Damn the Subject)
Dear everyone,

I have changed my email address but it's not a big change: Externallain@gmail.com.
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Feb. 4th, 2005 @ 12:22 pm It won't let me do the LJ cut thingy...
1. Give me your number?
2. Have sex with me?
3. Let me kiss you?
4. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. Let me take you out to dinner?
6. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. Take a shower with me?
8. Be my bf/gf?
9. Have a fling with me?
10. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
11. Buy me a drink if i didnt have money?
12. Take me home for the night?
13. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
14. Sing car karaoke w/ me?
15. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
16. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
17. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
18. Do you think im pretty, beautiful, or hot?
19. Do you like my style?
20. Do you think im funny?
21. Do you care about me?
22. Would you cry if i died?
23. Would you stop me if i tried to commit suicide?
24. Would you dance with me?
25. Would you sing happy birthday to me?
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Jan. 31st, 2005 @ 08:40 pm (Damn the Subject)
In a world made of physical, I remain invisible.
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Jan. 31st, 2005 @ 12:21 pm (Damn the Subject)
Today I have decided to kill myself and make a movie about it. There is no price for admission and snacks are free. Bring your friends or the ones you love and dinner is on-the-house. This is the time of your life why not be entertained along the way?
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Jan. 27th, 2005 @ 11:23 am (Damn the Subject)
What's my Mood again:: Shakey
Well, my comp project was approved. I have to be done with most of it by the end of February. I think I am going to spend the rest of this week and next week sketching out ideas of images and outlining stories. That way when I start in the process will not take as long. This is something I never do - outlines bah - but I think it will help in the long run.

I went to bed early last night. 11-o-clcok can you believe that? I got up at 7 and tried to sleep more but I couldn't so I got up. I played Mercenaries until 11am then I came here to work for 5 hours. I have a lot of reading to do that I would not do in my room so it is a good thing I am here. Oh I found cheats for Mercenaries and now I can wander around the *Restricted* areas and not die. What's cool is that with that cheat on whatever car or heli I am in is invincible as well. It's cool to use once and a while. Oh I got this really cool gun. It is a sniper riffle with arm piercing bullets. I can shoot through tanks with this gun. It is a special gun you can get once you get through a certain length of the game. And I can order heli's which rocks.

I now have a roommate. Kevin Berger. He is cool we hangout from time to time. I don't want a roommate but it's better this way. He is moving in after he gets off work tonight, which will be during The OC.

I have 3 quizzes tomorrow. There are just quizzes, but still 3! In two of my classes we have them every Friday. Good thing I have 4 and half hours of doing nothing so I can catch up on reading.

Umm...my hands are shaking...maybe it's just my eyeballs?

It's really cool to watch yourself get blown up by 30 missiles and not die.
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Jan. 25th, 2005 @ 03:58 pm (Damn the Subject)
I'm a sexy girl in this crazy world!
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Jan. 24th, 2005 @ 11:08 pm Ah, the cousin kiss! The sexiest of all kisses.
What's my Mood again:: content
You step through the gaping door of the craft that brought you to this unknown place. The neon light of the surrounding buildings floods your skin instantly shifting it to a silvery-green which out shines the entire city. The eyes that encircle you are wide with the excitement and unknown that your arrival brings. Their collective gasp sucks away your breath as you plant your feet onto the foreign soil. "One small step for man..." goes through your head but you bat it away attempting to stay in the moment. You slowly take your tired, well traveled hands from your pockets and wiped the fear from you face. Looking through the crowd you begin to question your recent actions but you know your mission is true and give the signal to the captain to quiet the chattering faces. They quickly fall silent. You open your mouth to speak and their eyes open wide with expectation, "I have come to give sight to your blind," you say with a little hesitation. They stare at you. The looks of excitement have turned to looks of confusion and you can tell that they do not believe you and that they are about to cast you out as a fraud. But suddenly loud cheers flows back and forth through the crowd and all you doubts are washed away. Then as suddenly as the cheers began they subside. The crowd parts and a middle-aged man steps forward. He removes his hat, wrings it nervously in his hands and mumbles something you cannot understand. "I am sorry," you say to the man. "I could not hear your question. Would you please repeat it?" The man bows apologetically and speaks, "Sir," he says, "No one in our city is blind, no one in our city as any sort of affliction." He pauses and looks you in the eyes. "We thank you for your offer, but I do not know if we need your help." You wait as he bows again and replaces his hat. "You misunderstand me. You misunderstand me," you say louder to everyone. "I have not come to cure your illnesses and afflictions. I have come to help you understand the truth, the wisdom and the knowledge which is being kept from you." Again the eyes of confusion look upon you and again the middle-aged man steps forward. However this time he does not remove his hat; this time he does not bow and this time his voice is clear. "Sir," he begins, "we understand that we do not know everything about ourselves and we understand that the people who run our cities and countries only share the information they deem acceptable - but what we cannot understand is how someone, such as yourself, who is not from this place, is going to revels information about us that even we cannot and are not allowed to know?" His question takes you aback and for the first time you wonder about your convictions. You turn to leave knowing that there is nothing more you can do there when a hand grips you arm. "Where are you going," the voice attached to the hand questions. "I am leaving," you respond without turning around. "Why," asks the voices. "There is nothing more I can do here," you explain. "Just because," he starts, "just because you cannot unveil hidden truth about us does not mean we do not wish to know about you." "About me," you ask turning to find the middle-age man smiling wide. "Then, maybe, together we can find answers to all questions we do not understand." The crowd again erupts in cheer.
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Jan. 24th, 2005 @ 08:26 am (Damn the Subject)
I believe I am broken...May I borrow your glue?...Do you have any super glue? This is a big job...Could you help? I seem to be in pieces and my hands are not strong enough to hold me together...Oh, I see. Could you at least point me in the right direct?...Oh, I see, you have misplaced your intention - sorry to have bothered you.
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Jan. 22nd, 2005 @ 04:41 pm (Damn the Subject)
I found this really cool site called art.com. They have a virtual painting canvis and when you are finished and go to the link they give you it shows the steps you took to make the painting. Check it out: My First Try
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Jan. 21st, 2005 @ 08:56 pm (Damn the Subject)
So I am currently watching The Ashlee Simpson Show and I just foundout that she went platinum in the first week. I like her CD a bit actually...
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Jan. 19th, 2005 @ 11:53 am you make me wanna LaLa...
What's my Mood again:: exanimate
Voices singing in my head:: Love for Me - Ashlee Simpson
It had been weighting on me for some time before I made my choice. Every time I would pass her it ripped through my mind and tore at my soul. In our last days together I could not get her to look at me. Her responses, as she passed with eye averted, were always one syllable - usually the word no. She never yelled and I never saw her cry but I knew I had destroyed her. She was always the stronger one even if it was a lie...That much, at least, is obvious by my failure. I want to undo this mistake; to take a different path; to make a different decision but that is what people always say in a situation like this.

*derailed*
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Jan. 18th, 2005 @ 11:00 pm (Damn the Subject)
you still have my mustard!
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Jan. 18th, 2005 @ 11:06 am Here we go again...
What's my Mood again:: discontent
Voices singing in my head:: typing
Love...oh, love -

So yeah, I did absolutely nothing yesterday. I overslept and missed everything that was going on for MLK day here on campus. Then I proceeded to watch like 8 eps of Biker Build-Off and like 30 eps of the first season of Digimon. I was going to read like two chapters of my Bio book but that didn't happen. I was going to come up with good ideas for my senior comp but that didn't happen. I was going to shower - oh wait I did shower. I also ate too much. I never left my room. The one thing I did do this weekend was read 100 pages of Invisible Man for Multicultural Literature so that's good. I wanted to read the bio book because I have lab today and I haven't read anything in that book. I hope we don't do anything important.

I did make a resolution however. I resolved to forget about liking people. If I think I like someone I and just going to forget about it. Human interactions seem to be overrated - for me at least. I am going to stick only having acquaintances. A few people I randomly say Hi! to and randomly have a random conversation with seems to be all I get so I accept it. The one person I could like - well let’s say it would work out. I have discovered that she seems to be just like everyone else. I am not completely unique myself but I know it.

Ultimately it comes down to the fact that I am just in the wrong place. I know it, you know it and they all know it. I also am in the wrong life. It's time I move on. I need to stop being such a fucking pansy and do something about it. Try and fail. Try and fail...what a cycle.
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Jan. 17th, 2005 @ 11:49 am (Damn the Subject)
Well damn - I just woke up and completely missed a "requirement" for a scholarship...I wonder if they will take it away from me now?
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Jan. 16th, 2005 @ 06:26 pm If you haven't already...
Everyone should see .Hack//Sign. In my opinion it is one of the greatest animes ever - too bad there isn't more than 28 eps. There is another series called .Hack//Legend of the Twilight but I hear it isn't as good. I still want to see it.
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Jan. 14th, 2005 @ 04:45 pm (Damn the Subject)
I was about to type a big entire about something I was just thinking. Then I realized that it did not matter because no one will listen anyway.
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Jan. 13th, 2005 @ 04:41 pm (Damn the Subject)
Though rested and ready, they've been going nowhere for days.
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